"I almost gave up my dream in music"

There are times that you have to give up your dream due to personal, financial, health or other specific reasons. For me it's a mix of personal and financial reasons, to be honest ... I am here to share my insights on "almost gave up" my career in music.

Way back in 2011 of November, I used to be in a trio vocal band. Where we do some vocal ensemble where there are soprano, alto and melody (yeah as usual). I posted in a profile page that I have plans to leave the group for personal reasons. So it made a misunderstandings that I made an offense against the group and I do delete the post I've posted after someone told me to delete it. As a result, I performed in another special school (Kids Partner) as a classical singer since I was untrained that time at the age of 17. Apart from my departure from the trio group, I performed in the special school where my former therapists was a founder and it gave me a lot of happiness from my childhood when I was being with my former therapists.

So I started performing again in the 2012 edition of The Angel's Walk for Autism with my song "It's My Time" then the music was cut and I felt lonely inside but finished my song with applause. So this was the worst after quitting the group, I was also depressed and almost stressed out because of the incident. Some ignored me then some asks me a common questions. But in the end of the day I was on TV for a second, well at least it's an achievement for me before I graduated high school.

Then after many months of hiatuses, I received a phone call from my teacher in which she manage the group that I will be performing at the 2013 Angel's Walk For Autism and I told her my song and that was "Light Of A Million Mornings" and I've just practiced the song after listening to Laarni Lozada's rendition and I made myself sing into that song before going to my German class. As a result, I made a comeback now as a classical vocalist singing the gospel song "Light Of A Million Mornings" during the Angel's Walk in which many people wandered on my improvement in my voice and performances too. So I acquired my former success as a singer for ASP and I'm almost became an instant star to them inspite of mismanagement and misunderstandings from the past.

After my engagements in singing on stage, I was interested in "The Voice" so I submitted an audition video then I received a phone call from the management that I can do the blind auditions so I wish to go there and I got 50-50 because of my final exams so I've turned down the blind audition. So on my 18th birthday I made at least 10-12 turns to reach the audition booths for the same contest and I've got exhausted and lost of energy and that will affect your performance. So I sang 2 classical songs "The Prayer" and "Bukas Na Lang Kita Mamahalin" and I have no callback. I also did my second try for the same contest (The Voice) and I sang "You Raised Me Up" and we were required to make our songs more of a fortississimo and we have our voice reach the stage very very high... and I didn't have any callback for the second time. 

As a result, I almost gave up my career in music for these reasons. But I was motivated to perform after I performed at the 2014 Angels Walk for Autism I almost got hearts of fans who wanted me back for the ASP stages and I also signed up for the annual recital and it became a success and I almost receive a lot of good compliments. I wish in the upcoming auditions I will win roles and performances and seek more invitations all around.